Yesterday, I entered the hospice chapter of the journey with my dad.
Not necessarily because he is ready for it but because the hospital is
having trouble placing him in a nursing home without it. Medicare and
Medical have ridiculous rules and have made my life a living hell with
all of their bureaucracy. I've signed the consent forms before but
we've never ended up using hospice because my dad has rallied.
(For those of you who don't know what hospice is it's type of care and philosophy of care that focuses on the palliation of a chronically ill, terminally ill or seriously ill patient's pain and symptoms, and attending to their emotional and spiritual needs)
Right
after the hospice social worker got there my son called, he and his
friend decided late Friday night to go to Mammoth for a snow boarding
adventure. Christian wanted to know where to go to rent equipment so I
asked my dad. His reply was "tell him to go to Footloose and ask for
Tony, he's part owner and an old friend, tell him you're my grandson and
he may be able to hook you up, or to to Kittredge's and ask for Bob,
tell him you're my grandson and he'll take care of you." Moments like
these are encouraging but heartbreaking at the same time because
mentally my dad is sharp and clear but his body is failing him.
I
started taking my kids to Mammoth several years ago during the summer,
the first trip they were pretty bored, they couldn't deal with the quiet
of the mountains. So the first trip was sort of a bust except for
canoeing on Lake Mary and a visit to Whitmore pool. Then four years ago
we went again (minus Jade, our oldest daughter) for my Uncle Pat's
memorial celebration. This time Christian fell in love with Mammoth and
has really wanted to go during the winter. Well, this weekend he's
there and staying with my dad's cousin. He even got offered a seasonal
job at the mountain yesterday! He posted a picture on Instgram saying "a
dream come true, I think I just found where I want to spend the rest of
my life."
The irony of all this is that Mammoth will be my
dad's final resting place. We lived there when I was a kid, after my
parents divorced. After I went to live with my mom, my dad stayed and I spent most of my
summers, long weekends, and spring breaks there until he moved to Las
Vegas when I was in high school. The standing joke with my dad for
years was him saying that when he couldn't ski anymore, strap him to a
pair of skis and push him off the top of the mountain. I can't tell you how many times we've looked into buying a place either
in Mammoth or Bishop so my dad could live the rest of his days there.
There's something magical about living in Mammoth and it seems to be
in the DNA of the men in my family. My dad and one of his younger
brothers, Pat lived there for years. My other uncle had a second home
there for a while and my dad's cousin has lived there for 35+ years.
And now my son is wanting to live there for the rest of the winter at
least.
Irony.